Astray In Love

Episode 29

I just kept my head straight, i love Ayomide more than anything and that’s why i don’t want to misuse the second chance she gave to me. I continued with her for months but everything wasn’t the way i wanted.

“She wouldn’t call me back anytime she missed my call..”

“She don’t call me unless i do the calling…”
“Even if she was online on social media, to reply my chat is another problem..”

This is not the way i wanted our relationship to look like, but i felt i did not have a choice. I felt it was all my fault to have left her for another girl in the first place.

“Why is she now behaving like this now that I’m truly back for her..”
“How can’t play along with her like this?..” I was fed up.

I no longer concentrate at work again as all i do is just to engage myself with thinking about her, sometimes is do make silly mistakes as a result of been carried away in thought during working hours. Life becomes miserable for me, moses would just advice me to let go of her and move on with my life. I wish i can just do what he ask me to do but it’s just too difficult for me. I tried so many times trying to forget about her but i couldn’t.

“How i wish someone could help me explain how much and loved her and the kind of feelings i have for her, i guess she did not have a single ideal of how much i loved and cared about her..”

“Even if I’m serving the punishment of leaving her for another girl earlier, i think i should have finished it..”

One day i made up my mind not to call Ayomide throughout a day, i think i would be able to find out if she really cares about me. I decided to put my phone in silent mode, dropped it at the bottom of my bag and check it back the next day. It wasn’t that easy for me, i was tempted to picked the phone and called her because i can’t just do without her but i tried as much as could to controlled myself.

The next day, i quickly went straight to where i kept my phone in order to check how many missed calls I’ve gotten in total and how many i would have from Ayomide. I was so surprised when i saw forty three missed call in total but if felt like killing myself as there was no single missed from Ayomide.

“So this girl did not even call me” Tears formed in my eyes.

I knew she did not have any feelings for me anymore from that moment. I couldn’t help myself but to cry, i love Ayomide so much, i wanted to make her the best woman she can ever be but she wouldn’t give me the chance. I came to understand that anytime she needs anything from me, she will be cool and calm with me at that moment but as soon as she got what she wants, i look like trash in her presence again.

That month, I had planed to go home by ending as soon as i gets my salary, i called my mum and informed her about my coming and she had already be anticipating me. About nine days to the day i planned to go home, Ayomide called me and said she wants to get another new phone as the one she’s using is no longer good and it doesn’t allow her to chat with me frequently. I have no regret sending her the money I’m supposed to use to travelled home at month end for her to purchased the phone of her choice and i called to cancelled my traveling. Just after some days after i sent her the money, she resumed back with her altitude.

Despite all these things, i still can’t explain if it is love or madness that has taken over me as i would still move mountain to meet up with her needs.

I was still having that hope that one day Ayomide will changed for good and realized how much i loved and care about her, but what a stupid and useless hope I’ve been having since all this while!
“Love is indeed blind!..” I guessed!…