Bloody Lips

Episode 20

Xander POV :

“Why did you have to leave before ? ” She asks in a small voice, looking down at the food while playing with the food.

“Because my parents had died and I had to take over their business. ” I tell him, clenching my fists tight. 62

“Then why didn’t you tell me?!” Her head snaps towards me with shock.

“I would’ve come with you. I would’ve support you. Why didn’t you tell me anything, Xander?” She continues with a soft voice.

Because I can’t. 1

“Can we just drop this for now,please? ” I sigh and run a hand towards my hairs in frustration hoping she drops it-

“No. ” She says, blankly. She has changed alot. 30

“I want to know what you left me in the first place?” 12

“I will tell you, alright? I will tell you everything but now please just drop it for now. ” I reply, trying hard not to let the anger control me for her sake. 4

“For now? You promise you will tell me later? ” She asks me with doubt in her eyes. 13

I nod my head, in return to which she nods back and continues with her food.

I look at my angel. Black hairs falling down over her face, innocent green eyes with pouty lips. I want to kiss those lips, continuously.

Beautiful. That’s the only word that comes into my mind by looking at her. 9

After coming back from the backyard few days back with holding hands when i saw the shocked faces of Jennifer and Laila, it still amuses me. 1

“Why aren’t you eating? ” Her angelic voice drags me out of my thoughts.

“I am not hungry.”

“Why? I hardly see you eating anything. ” 17

I look at her with a raised eyebrow.

“Someone is concerned about me.”

She blushes while murmuring,

“Whatever.”

The need to kiss her, increased. 47

“Are you done?” I ask when she pushes her plate away.

“Yes.”

I stand up and offer her my hand which she takes immediately.

Warm fills my whole body when her hand touches my skin making me smile. I wrap my fingers around her small hand stroking her side of hand with my thumb. I miss this. 26

From the corner of my eyes,i see her looking at her joined hands. I know she misses this also. 3

“Where are we going?” She asks, softly.

I shrug my shoulder while dragging her towards the stairs.

“Where do you want to go? ” 3

“Can I go home? ” She mumbles in a slow voice. If it hasn’t for my hearing senses,i wouldn’t even hear it. 3

“No.” I reply almost flatly. Again , we are having this talk again. No,i don’t want her to go home. Why does she want to go home when she had said to give me chance? Then, why again and again she is talking to go away from me? 47

She stops and pulls her hand away from me before crossing her arms. She takes her warmth along with her hand.

I want that hand in my hand, now. 116

I make a move to grab it but she moves back. I frown before leaning against the staircase’ railing. 4

“Why ‘no’ ? You can’t keep me here always,Xander. This is not fair. ” She says furiously. I am not having this argument again. 16

“But you have to live here always , with me. ” she glares at me . What did I say? 13

“I have a life before you came back. So don’t wave this flag of ‘you have to live with me ‘ infront of my face and expect me to accept everything you throw at me. ” She says while pointing her finger in my direction. 28

“I’m not throwing anything at you. I just want you to live with me that’s it. Why it is so hard for you to understand that I can’t live without you besides my side?”

“So accept this or not. You are going to live with me. ” I say pointing my finger at myself. 10

She looks at me in disbelief with hurt in her eyes. And just by that look,I feel my inside burning. 3

“I thought after everything you had said,you will even try to understand and make things better between us. But you are making it more difficult for me.” She whispers heartbroken and moves away from me. 40

I am stuck in my place unable to move, I want to go after her but her words trapped me in place. I watch her disappearing above the stairs then I hear a distant door slam.

And then I run.

I stop infront of her door and turn the door knob to find it lock.

Fuvk. Break it. Yes , but- 13

You don’t have show, the monster you are yet . 48

So, i take the more civil method and knock.

“Alexandra. Open the door.” 25

Silence.

“Open the door and let me in.” 13

Silence.

This is getting on my nerves,now. My eyebrows furrow. 2

“Open it before I break it.” I say and turn the knob to emphasize. 5

Then I hear the sniffing.

“Why are you crying? Are you hurt? Open the fuxking door.” I shout angrily. If she doesn’t open it, I am going to break it. 75

I hear a humorless laugh before,

“Why am I crying? Am I hurt? Seriously? Are you asking me that? ” 3

What did I do? Why is she crying? 172

You are making her cry again. I sigh. 2

“Lexi?” I call out,softly now. 7

Again no reply

“Please, Lexi. Open it. Talk to me.” 12

“There is nothing to talk about because you will do whatever you want. You don’t care what I think what I feel.” She yells. 54

“I care about you and your feelings. The only person,I care about is you and only you. ” 12

“Then let me go home?” She whispers but now from near the door . I know she is on the other side of it. 2

I put my forehead and a hand against the door. 10

She wants to go home. She wants to leave me. She will never forgive what I did. She wants to stay away from me. 21

The more I think about it,the more possessive i become.

She can’t leave me . No. It can’t happen. She said she will give me a chance. How could she leave me?

“But you said you will give me a chance. You said you will give me time to make us better,to make our relationship better. But you are going. You can’t leave me. I am not allowing it. ” My voice raises at the end. 3

“I am not leaving you. I just want to go my home. It doesn’t mean that I am leaving.” Her voice raises also. 14

“It does mean you are leaving, you are going away from me . I can’t stay away from you. ” I say before punching the wall forcefully beside the door while shouting, 32

“You can’t go away from me. ” 1

The wall shooks with so much force of my anger that Lexi opens the door suddenly with wide eyes.

Her wide eyes look from me then to the wall to find a hole there. 8

Great. 12

But I don’t move my eyes from her. She gulps with fearful eyes, face stained with tears and looks back at me. 6

Fuxking great . Now you make her , scared. This is how are you going to make it better, Xander? 5

Now I am angry at myself. I raise my fist again to punch the wall when- 9

“Xander, stop!! ” She yells before pushing me away from the wall.

And I let her.

My back hit the wall across from her room and I lean against it. I close my eyes and throw my head backward with clench jaws and fists.

“Xander ” she whispers.

I don’t reply because I know if I do, I will start shouting and make her cry even more. 1

I feel hand on my arm and suddenly warmth spread throughout my body, making me calm again. 11

Then she lifts my fist and rub her thumb over my knuckles.

I open my eyes and look down at my angel, who is looking down at my hand with a confused look.

Because my hand doesn’t have any bruise or anything. 7

“How?” She looks up at me with questioning gaze. 29

I remove my hand from hers and lift it to stroke her cheek.

You are so innocent , Alexandra. You don’t know anything. I don’t know how I am going to tell you about who I am. About what I am. 58

But at this moment,I don’t want to think about it. I just want you in my arms.

“Don’t leave me, Alexandra.” I almost beg. 28

Her gaze softens before she sighs,

“I am not leaving you,Xander. Why are you thinking like that? I am not going anywhere. I am here with you. ” She says before putting her hand on my chest. 12

A sigh left my lips, involuntary.

“I just want to go home . You know, I have a job . I have my house, my car and… ” she trails off and looks over my shoulder, deep in thought.

“… and people who must be looking for me. ” Then she looks at me but her mind is somewhere else,I can see from the cloudness over her eyes. 54

“Just take me home. I will live there and we will still be together. I am not leaving you. “

I look at her with blank face. I know what people must be looking for her and I feel my temper rising again. But I try everything in me to control it. 27

Just think about her hand on your chest,Xander . 9

“This is your home too. All the things that I own,is yours . Everything I have,is yours . Even I am yours.” I insist. She blushes at the last part and that blush brings a small smile on my lips. 17

“But I have been living there for years, it is not easy for me to suddenly change everything.” She tries to argue. 32

And I can see from the look of determination in her eyes that she won’t back down. I remember what she was like before. Once she thought of doing something, she did it, no matter what other says. My Queen is so stubborn just like me.

I chuckle at my own thoughts. 1

“Why are you laughing?” She demands with narrow eyes.

I snake my arm around her and pull her into my chest. She yelps when she collides with me. 3

I bit my lips before leaning down my head near her ear, whispering,

“You.”

She takes a shaky breath in and I smirk at the effect I always have on her. 5

I kiss her jaws, open mouthed making her shiver. I trail the kisses down to her neck and inhale her scent. 9

As her scent fills my lungs the need to take her, here and now increased. She fists her hands on the front of my shirt. 19

“Xander.” She whispers. 1

“Hmm?” I mumbles before sucking on her skin of neck. 4

“We a-are t-talking about somethin-g.” She stutters. I leave her skin before trailing my tongue on that sucked part. 45

“Are we now?” I blow on that part making her moan.

My hands move from her waist to the hem of her shirt as I slowly move it upwards. My lips kissing her neck.

As my fingers rub against her stomach, she jumps and stills. I stop there and then. 9

Her hands open up and she pushes herself away from me making my hands fall on my side.

Is she not comfortable? But why? We had done everything before then why not now? 52

“I .. I think…. it is best if we.. uh.. we talk about the matter.. that is in the hands now.” 4

I raise an eyebrow before moving fast and turning her around with me so that now she is against the wall. I put my hands on each side of her head .

“And what is that matter?” I say before kissing her cheek, slowly.

“Of you… You taking me home. ” I sigh at her words then put my head on her shoulder.

Okay. If she wants to then fine but-

“Okay. I will take you home and we will live there. ” I say now looking at her. 105

She gasps and her eyes sparks with delight but then when she registers my words , they narrow down at me.

“What do you mean by ‘we’ ? ” 22

“We means you and I. We will live there if you want.” I shrug before removing my hands and putting them in my pockets. 25

” No. I will live there and you will not .” 1

“Yes . I will .” 13

“No, you will not.”

“Why? “

“Because that is my house.”

“So wherever your house is,I will be there with you.” 3

“No.” She glares at me.

“Yes.” I snap .

“Why?” She groans. 5

“Because I don’t like your certain guests there.” My reply makes her shut up , instantly. She looks at me with wide eyes. I stay calm but from inside , I am spitting fire.

She gathers herself after few minutes before saying,

“Don’t push me , Xander. You are pushing me again. At least give me some space to think about things if you want to make everything better between us. I don’t give you this chance to boss me around. ” 32

And that makes me shut up. Even though I am angry at the fact that she is not allowing me, I have to admit the fact that she is right. I am indeed pushing her from the start.

I reluctantly nod before saying,

“Fine. But not now after few days and I will come there whenever I want because technically I am your boyfriend. ” 152

I turn around,leaving her stunt there and move away from her to go and take out my frustration somewhere else. 4

This girl will be the death of me. 57

But there is no way in hell, I am going to leave her there right now and she is not going there alone.

But

Things will going to get pretty much exciting, I smirk.