Bloody Lips

Episode 22

Alexandra POV:

“You know our rules , Alex. You can’t go on leave without telling the boss or else you loose the job.” Susan,my boss says,making me open and close my mouth like a fish. 14

“But.. but I told you , it was an emergency. I was panicked and lost my phone . I don’t have any idea on how to contact you. ” I plead with her.

I can’t believe she fired me. How could she?I am her best worker and she fired me so easily? 40

“I know what you must be thinking right now that you were my best worker but I still fired you because rules are rules. I have to do everything to make people follow them or if I let anyone break them others will do the same then.” She sighs. 2

I nod my head,slowly. She is right if she let me continue the job then others will going to do the same thinking that she will let them slip also. 2

I look around her office thinking what to do now. Pictures hanging on the walls. Some contain art works and some contain her pictures with other important business people.

But one picture gets my attention. It was from our last year when we had celebrated our 10 years of this company. I was standing with Susan with her arm wrapped around my waist with a proud look on her face and I was smiling wildly at the camera while other workers were standing besides us with the same smile. 2

My breath hitches when I notice Justin also. He had a smug smirk on his lips. He must be here also. What if he knows i’m here and is waiting for me outside?

I can’t risk this. What if he knows that I am back and comes to my house? My eyes widen in worry.

I can’t risk that . Xander can be there also and it won’t turn pretty well knowing that he has now anger issues. 43

I snap out my train of thoughts when Susan reaches forward from across the table and touches my arm. I look at her to find her looking at me with worry and concern.

“Are you alright? I was calling you but you seem distant and pale.”

“Yeah.. Yes. I am fine. Just thinking.” I shake my head to get rid of Xander’s angry face and smile at her.

“You know what… ” She trails off before digging into her purse and pulling out a business card.

“Go here and apply for job here. I am sure ,you will get a job here. You have great qualifications and experience and I can also give him thumbs up for you if needed. ” She winks at me while my smile widens. 10

“Thankyou so much. Thankyou.”

After talking with her a little while, I make my way out of her office and make my way towards the elevator. 6

I was hoping that I don’t have any meeting with Justin. But as fate is playing a cruel joke on me a foot stop the elevator when the doors were about to shut. 11

My green eyes connected with his black ones and i take a deep breath in to calm my nerves. 15

This is not happening…

He looks at me with blank face and moves forward. I jump up at the sound of the door closing. I look everywhere but him.

Suddenly, I am being pulled an crashed into a hard chest. Justin snuggles his head in my hair and breathes in. 52

“Alex. I miss you.” He whispers. My eyes are wide thinking what to do. This is the most awkward situation, I am being put into. Suddenly, Xander’s face flashes in my head and i pull away from him. 70

He looks at me with furrow eyebrows still holding my shoulders.

“Where the hell were you? ” He asks. 7

“I called you so many times. I went to police to find that they were already searching for you due to some reasons. I had even asked them to tell me but they didn’t tell me anything. What the hell is going on?” 4

I look at him and i can see concern in his eyes. I close my eyes and pull away from his grasp. His hands remains in mid air before slowly hanging down.

I open my mouth to reply when the door opens and we rush out. He wraps around my wrist and pulls me towards the side of the elevator.

I bit my lower lip thinking hard looking at him as he looks at me expectantly, his eyes flickering towards my lips before moving back towards my eyes.

How am i going to tell him to stay away from me without him demanding answers? How am i going to tell him to stop coming to my house? 1

What if I change my house?

No. I hadn’t changed it before and I am not going to change it now. 9

“Look,Justin… ” He nods. I clear my throat.

“We have to stop seeing each other.” He pauses before leaning against the wall and replying slowly.

“And what do you mean by stop seeing each other? ” 9

I look at the people around us, avoiding eye contact with him.

I think we should go somewhere else to have this conversation with him because this is not the appropriate place.

“Do you mind if we step out and have this conversation somewhere else? ” I ask him and he pushed away from the wall and leading the way.

“Where are we going? ” I ask him.

“Your place or mine?” I stop in mid step as my eyes become wide as saucers. 11

I sure as hell know where it will go if we take it to my place and to his place? It is not even an option. 2

“No.” He stops turns around, people passing by us.

“Why?” He furrows his eyebrows but there is an irritating look on his face.

“Uh – I just want to go out actually so why we not go to this cafe opposite to our building? ” I ask almost plead.

“Sure.” He snaps at me before moving out while i almost run to match his strides but I keep a distance from him as I can feel anger and irritation radiating off his body. 11

What I am going to say to him?I feel like a bad person but we are not in a relationship. But he had told me about his feelings and I still continued whatever we were doing . 6

I realize when I was with Xander not for once I thought about Justin. I revive every moments we shared together,they were good but everytime it felt wrong. I feel so guilty right now. And hoping that ground tears apart and engulfs me. 6

“So?” He asks as we take our seats.

“So what?” 8

“You were saying ?” He asks.

“Oh. Yeah. We can’t see each other anymore.” I trail my finger over my coffee cup. 5

“And what do you mean by it?” He asks, impatiently. 5

“I mean that we will stop everything… everything we were doing before. And we will stay away from each other. ” I complete my sentence and look up at him. 1

He leans forward putting his elbows on the table between us. His jaws clench tight and hands into fists but his expression is calm .

“And why do you think that will happen?” He asks me slowly. His eyes searching my face as he trying to look into my soul. 33

“Because I am saying that. We are going to stay away and I’m ending it. ” I reply now confidently.

“No.” He replies ,calmly . 93

“No?” I ask him, confused.

“Yes. No. I am not stopping it. ” He replies before leaning back into his seat. 63

Anger boils within me. Who the hell is he to say no? 30

Why the hell everyone is pushing me and denying me ?

“And why the hell ‘no’ ? ” I grit out.

“Because you are not giving me any good reason to stay away from you.” He shrugs. 7

“Because I love someone . ” I blurt out whatever comes into my mind but regret it when I realize what I just said. 55

“You love someone ? ” He grits out. 17

I nod , praying to God that this works.

“And who is he?” 8

“That’s none of your business.” I reply,coldly. 5

“I said who is he?” 39

Something snaps within me before I slam my hand on the table before leaning forward.

“I said that’s none of your fucking business. From now on you are going to stay away from me. You won’t going to call me, message me and not even going to come to my house. ” 86

“What if I do?” He asks. 45

“I am going to put a restraining order against you.” 33

He closes his eyes before resting his head on his hands.

“Please don’t do this. ” He whispers. 62

“Please don’t leave me. ” He looks up at me, the look in his eyes strikes a knife in my heart. I can feel tear building up in my eyes. 53

“I am sorry. ” I whisper back, trying to stop the tears to fall out. 11

“We shouldn’t… I shouldn’t had done whatever we did. It is my fault. I am sorry. “

“But what happened so suddenly? How can you love someone so suddenly? Where do you met him ? Who the hell he is?” He pleads with his eyes to tell me this is all a lie. 28

Someone kill me. If Xander hadn’t come back, we would still be together. But what is done, is done. 15

Tears fall down my eyes.

“I had met him very long time ago. It is not suddenly. ” I reply honestly before wiping my eyes. 3

“A very long time ago?” He asks with hurt evident in his face.

“Were you cheating and leading me on?” 75

“What ? No. ” I say ,loudly gaining looks from few people.

I lower my voice before saying,

“No. You are thinking wrong. He left a long time ago but now he is back. ” 3

He straightens up , every motion wiping off from his face making my eyebrows furrow. 1

“He is back? ” 25

I nod at him,looking at him cautiously. Something flashed in his eyes before he covers it up.

“He left you. But I didn’t and I won’t. Why are you going back to him? What if he leaves you again? Have you ever thought about it? ” He reasons out with me. 85

What if he leaves me again ? But he told me he wouldn’t. But what if he does?

I zone out as I remember the time we had spent together in his house. He is trying everything to make it better. I think sometimes we have to take risk. 4

Sometimes risk can lead us either towards our betterment or towards our finishing line where we know that ‘this is it’. 2

Xander can be my finishing line or he can be my betterment where I will know what will be good for me or what will not. I have to take this risk.

“What if he leaves you again?” Justin asks me again, pulling me into present. I shrug my shoulder. 5

He laughs sarcastically as he stands up, abruptly. I stand up with him.

“You know what. Go to your lover but when he leaves you again. Don’t come back to me or wait. Do come back to me and I am sure I can take your mind off him. ” He smirkes at me but his eyes showing anything but playfulness. He glares at me before storming out of the cafe. 178

I slump down in my seat and put my head on my hands. I cry silently for everything. Justin was my friend also. 27

I lost my friend. How many things I am going to lose? 54

I don’t know for how long I cry but my phone ringing bring me back to reality as I fish my phone out and look at the caller ID .

Xander’s name flashes making my eyes pop out of my eyes. I never even thought for a second that he could be watching me like everytime. 5

I look around hoping he is not here and evesdropping.

I attend the call and put the phone over my ear to meet by way to calm voice of Xander.

“Where are you, love?” I gulp down, chewing my bottom lip.