Hidden Dreams

Episode 27

I waited after knocking on the gate twice making sure my knock wasn’t so loud but audible . I couldn’t have whoever was inside to have a bad impression of me.

I held my hands nervously waiting for the person who was opening the gate to come out. A gentle looking man walked out looking at me.

“Good afternoon,” I greeted him ignoring the thoughts that rushed through my head.
“What if this gentle man was her lover or even Fiance? ” I thought.

I decided to be brave. I was going to see her whatever was the case.

The man responded and told me to wait when I told him I was looking for Angela. I couldnt use Ms Jere knowing that would sell me out as a student of hers. I was a man now and I held my head high.

Taking one look at my blue jeans a bit ripped on the front pocket and a short sleeved black shirt, matching with a pair of black casual shoes and I recalled how much they had cost me and smiled, they were worthy it cause I knew they looked so good on my feet i felt my pride rise.

Lifting my arm to smell if i didn’t forget to put on roll on and perfume. Satisfied I smelled good, I sighed as I heard the foot steps from inside. It was obvious she was the one coming cause the sound of the slippers Patting as she walked gave her away.

I was almost starting to imagine her smooth legs and medium sized feet when she stood right in front of me frozen. It was like she had seen a ghost.

Her lips patted as she gazed at me and for a moment I kept my eyes on set on them contemplating how they would taste on mine if i got them just to slid on them in a flash.
She had no makeup on, she looked even more beautiful. Obviously not expecting anyone important, her hair was a bit out of older too, like she just unbraided it as I could see the curls I used to see when my mother was done undoing her hair, Only hers was longer and fall to her shoulders. She had the small part in front dyed with a strip of Gold or Brown I wasn’t sure.

My eyes went down her body taking in her jeggings and a loose T-shirt. I was right, she had slippers on her feet, I had to swallow hard. The sight of her well manicured nails was so appealing I felt I could in an instant rub them gently.

All this I visualized in a flash of some seconds, then quickly looked up her face smiling widely.
” hey!” I finally greeted her and she opened her eyes wide to look at me like my voice just confirmed it was me standing before her.
” hey! Am um um ,” she stammered completely lost of words.
” what are you doing here? She finally uttered her words.
” well, I came to see you, I looked for you for months and now here I am,” i raised my hands and dropped them on my thigh making a small sound as they patted on my jeans.
” but I don’t understand, how did you find me? I mean who gave….”

” I found a way that’s what matters right?” I asked her, cutting her short. “where there is a will, there is a way you know the saying” I giggled looking at her as she held her hand to the gate.
” are you going to allow me in or what?” I asked her making sure my manly voice came out.

” oh Yeah, sure please come in Jay. Am sorry I was just caught off guard” she frowned holding the gate to allow me in.

I waited for her to lock back the gate and followed her as she walked towards the house.

I looked around the back where they had a small garden and the rest of the yard had neat green glass. I saw the man who opened the gate for me seated outside the servants quarter relieving me of the negative thoughts I had earlier.

“Come in,” she invited me into the house and I followed her passing through the kitchen before entering the living room with a wide mirrow on the side. Taking a quick look at myself before going to sit where she had offered me a seat.

” I like your house. It’s so calm and peaceful ” I smiled at her as she sat on the opposite couch facing Me.

” Thank you, but it’s not mine, its for my elder brother and his wife both of them have gone out for the weekend with their kids” she responded with a soft laugh.
” I see” I smiled back. ” it’s beautiful anyway,” I i shrugged and looked up and around. Our house was much bigger with more defined furniture and planty of some room too but I honestly loved the simplicity of her brother’s house.

” so what brings you here Jay, and how are you? I hope there’s no problem home” she started bring me back to the moment.
” oh yeah everyone is okey and like I promised you I never pick fights with my father, he’s more calm now that I passed my grade 12.”

“I heard and am proud of you” she smiled.
” Yeah thanks, but am not okey. I have not been okey since you left the school” I told her looking direct at her.

” oh no, what happened? Is anything the matter?” She asked, the sincerity of her concern clearly displayed in her eyes.

I shook my head and chose my next words,
” am not okey Angela,” I said almost in a whisper.

She swallowed hard I saw her gullet move up and down at my courage to call her by her first name.

” I have not been okey because I missed you a lot and was sad you never said good bye to me. You know I would have loved to know your whereabouts. I have spent the last 3 months searching for you and trying your line but I never went through. Tell me why you decided to purnish me like this” I went on not looking away from her face.
She shifted uncomfortably in her seat.
“Jay stop talking like that you know my view on this” she responded uncomfortably.
” I can’t because you told me I was confused before, are you sure after almost a year and now am 21 am still having some hormone break down? When are you going to understand that I love you and I want you for myself?” Moving to where she sat I held her hand.

Tell me you don’t feel any thing for me. Look into my eyes Angela and tell me you don’t have any feelings for me and I swear to God I will never bother you again”

She looked down avoiding my eyes and before she could say a word we heard the gate opening and the sound of a car outside.
I looked up the window and saw a man and woman seated in the front driving in.
” that should be my brother,” she told me and I moved back to my previous seat and sank back as we saw them enter the house.
” helo!” The brother extended his hand towards me and I stood up shaking it gently but firmly.

“Hello! How are you sir?” I greeted him and turned to greet his wife and the two girls who I supposed were their kids.
” I saw a vehicle outside and was wondering who’s visiting us” he let a laugh and Angela stood up.

” He’s Jared, brother , he came to see me” she indicated looking at me and I nodded my head in agreement. Glad she didn’t tell him I was her former student.
The man talked with us for a bit and I easied up realising how cool he was.
” let me leave you two to catch up am going to the other room” he announced and left us.
” feel at home Jared, and it was nice meeting you” he added as he reached the door.

” the pleasure is mine sir, and thank you for the warm welcome but I have to leave now” I told him looking at Angela who had talked less the entire time.

” okey then safe travel back to your home” he smiled and I stood up to go.
” will you see me out?” I asked Angela.
” Yeah of course I will” she chuckled a little. Standing up and walking me out to the car.

” get in,” I ordered opening the car door for her the moment we were outside.
” what? No I can’t I have to….”
” please ,” i whispered, my eyes pleading.
She got in and sat down as I went round the car to join her inside.

” I still want to talk to you. You have not answered my question”

She looked at me and sighed, but before she said a word I started the car without warning.
” where are you taking me looking like this?” She asked me looking straight at my face.

I smiled, ” you will see, and there is nothing wrong with the way you look. I actually like it. You look good.”

I saw her shake her head but said nothing .
We both remained quite as I drove to the road down Chainda heading to twin palms and then stopped, after taking a small turn besides the main road and parked where there was a clearing.

” Jay, I seriously don’t know what you are doing but I don’t like where this is going. What’s the meaning of this? ” she asked, as usual in a calm voice. I wondered if she had ever yeld at anyone. She was way too calm and I loved the peace that surrounded her.

” I asked you a question and I need an answer. Listen, am going away on Monday and I am glad I found you today. I needed to see you and to answer your question of what am doing. It’s simple, I want to know how you feel about me. Look at me and tell me you don’t feel anything and like I told you earlier, I will leave you alone and will not bother you again. Look into my eyes and tell me the truth please” I pleaded holding her hands as I turned to look at her.

She kept her eyes on the dash board and I couldn’t see that woman who was my teacher, all I could see was a woman who I loved so much but with the struggle to look at me.

I held her chin and turned her face towards me .
” am waiting, ” i whispered.

She looked straight into my eyes and I took in the softness in them. They looked clouded with some gentle passion which I could cleary interprate.

” I can’t do this Jay, please you have to let me be, we are……”

She couldn’t get to finish her sentence and I held her mouth with my finger. Patting her lips gently.
” come with me, ” I whispered still touching her lips.
” what do you mean,” she murmered behind my finger.

I walked to her side and opened the door holding her hand to allow her out.
I placed my phone to the radio in the car and turned the volume as the song I knew she loved cause I always heard it playing softly every time I went to her class back in school.
I increased the volume as I led her a couple of steps from the vehicle leaving the door open.
I bow my head slightly and asked her, ” will you dance with me?”

She looked around and back at me.
” here?” She asked surprised.
” Yeah. A perfect place for a perfect dance” I chuckled and held her close as the gentle music played on.

She was a bit stiff at the beginning, but as I drew her closer I felt her relax and she slowly placed her head on my chest dancing slowly her hands now touching my shoulders.

I stepped back and threw her forward, turning her around and pulled her back into my embrace and I saw her lips curve into a smile.

I held her closer dancing slowly with her my heart at peace and my mind so calm I felt home.

Without talking, allowing the sound of the music take over our thoughts, we danced quietly. I didn’t want to let her go, she belonged to me older than me or not, my heart had chosen.

She sighed and slid her hands on my chest stepping back and looked up at me.
” Jay,” she begun the sound of her voice making my insides move….
” talk to me Angela, Am all ears”..