Hidden Dreams

Episode 37

I went to stand at the back facing the small garden. Remembering how many times I had to go sit out there and cry myself out whenever my father would scold and throw his threats and insults at me.
” you are a diappointment and I sometimes wonder if you really are my son. Get to your senses boy and do the right thing. This dancing thing will be your down fall.” He scolded me.

My eyes where almost spilling out with the thoughts and I pushed them back when I heard foot steps in my back.
” You have grown so much, I can’t believe you actually are taller than me now” my father let a laugh as he stood near me.
I turned to look at him. ” dad I know you saw Angela and I want to know what the hell is going on. I don’t have time with your chit chats, am sure mom told you why am here.
” i snapped not wanting to have some other talk with him.

I get it Jared, you are still upset with me for not supporting you and you are probably thinking the worst of me right now. Am sorry for not being a father you expected but I needed you to be strong and do the right things. I care about you, you are my own blood and I love you” he said and I for the first time i felt he was being sincere.
” yeah you have the best way of showing it father. You know what though? I wont buy that now. If you trully loved me you could have supported me and probably you could have travelled with mom to witness me compete. But like always, I do the most stupid things. But you know what? Am not intrested in hearing those words now. I have done fine without them for years so lets get to the point father, where is Angela and what did you do to make her stop communicating with me?” I asked looking at him.
I saw his face soften a bit and he kept his eyes down.
” dad, are you going to say anything?” I asked

” Jared, come on sit with me in the TV room” he finally uttered his words calmly.
I wanted to refuse and let him tell me what was going on right that moment. I couldn’t wait any longer. But I just had to follow him.
An hour later, I stood up and looked out the window my head now pounding heavily I felt it would fall off my neck any instant.
My father just told me the story about Angela that gave me so much pain and shock I couldn’t hold myself.

Take me to her, I finally spoke up wiping a tear that had fallen slowly down my face.
” what? Now?” He asked frowning
Didn’t you hear a word of what I said?” He responded firmly.

” I did father and I insist I need to see her right away. I have to, I told you I love her and I will not rest until I see her again. I promised her I would come back and I am going to keep my promise. let’s go now” I insisted and I saw my father reluctantly stand up and grabbed his car keys.

I looked outside the car window as my father drove me. My mind wild back to the conversation we had earlier.

” I met Angela months after you were gone, I mean, I never really went to look for her but that your friend Tracy came here and told your sister Tina something about you having an affair with your teacher. And you know how Tina is, she let it all out to me, I felt she was taking advantage of you and all that. I had to do something”
” as usual, trying to fix my life huh?” I had responded cutting him.
” okey, so I went over,” he went on ignoring my comment.

” I found her at her brother’ s house. She didn’t deny the accusation. She actually told me she was deeply in love with you and you had practically followed her around even when she tried to hide from you.