Hidden Dreams

Episode 39

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Ms Jere(Angela)…….

I couldn’t stop smiling, closing my eyes and spinning around the house like a child. I was in love and nothing else mattered. I had given myself to him whole heartedly and even when I thought I would regret later on, well it was all different. I even fall deeply in love with him.
Seeing him drive away was trully painful. It was like a part of me had gone with him.
I recall how he had dropped me after we had spent the whole morning together. He kissed me good bye and drove away. I couldn’t move from my position. I knew I had to but my body couldn’t move. Like to answer my prayer, I saw him drive right back.

Like a small girl I had smiled widely and ran to him as he opened his arms to welcome me in them.

He kissed my lips and I held his waist closer to me. ” what are you doing here? You should be going” I asked between kisses and he laughed.

” I would ask you the same question ” he laughed.

” I cannot see myself away from you love. I will miss you terribly” he murmered between kisses.

” I will miss you too Jay. I love you” I finally told him and he smiled widely.
” wow, you finally said it !” He said excited.
” come on you have to go now” I pushed him.

” you don’t need to miss your flight. Start going now” I insisted and he made a sad face kissing me before getting back to the vehicle.

The rest of the days were great. He kept in touch as promised updating me on everything happening in Paris.

3 months later….
I started feeling bad. My breathing was becoming difficult. My brother told me I had a similar problem when I was younger. I went to the hospital and after the tests, the first thing I was told was that I was pregnant.

My brother looked at me with a questioning look and I remember I had smiled. ” oh God am carrying his child!”

I was so excited I couldn wait for evening so that I could tell him the news.

However, that was before the Doctor went on to give me the bad news.
” am sorry to cut your joy short. You have a serious problem with your heart. Somehow carrying this child will not help matters. The arteries that take blood to your heart are not functioning properly. But you need to have more tests to determine what’s causing that” he explained

” No am not aborting my child” I answered firmly. After he told me I had to consider giving up the pregnancy. If you people think I will kill my baby because of this condition you are trully mistaken”

My brother and the Doctor tried to convince me otherwise but I blantly refused. I wasn’t going to let my baby, The child I was to have with my love Jay, be killed just to save my life.
That evening when Jay called me I had to put on a happy face. Not wanting to let him know what was happening. I wanted to be sure everything was okey before I could tell him about our baby.

The month that followed was the hardest. The doctors went on explaining the condition of my heart.

” you have a heart cancer” he went on.
“Heart cancer is extremely rare, on average only one case of heart cancer is seen each year.

Although still rare, most cancers found in the heart have come from elsewhere in the body. Cancers that begin near the heart, such as lung cancer, can grow to involve the heart or the lining around the heart (pericardial sac). Or cancer can begin elsewhere in the body and spread to the heart through the bloodstream. Cancers that may affect the heart include breast cancer, kidney cancer, lung cancer, leukemia, lymphoma and melanoma, among others.

Cancer can affect the heart in other ways, as well. A rare type of cancer known as carcinoid tumor at times produces hormones that can damage heart valves. That is your condition Angela, Am afraid it’s serious and the chances of curing it are very slim especially with our facilities in this country”
“Okey I don’t want to pretend I didn’t hear what you said. But my main concern is my baby. Is it going to be okey?” I asked tears now falling from my eyes.
He looked at me for a while before sighing..
” am sorry Angela but your heart is not strong enough as it is. Carrying this child will make things more difficult for you.” He explained.

“Is there even a slight chance the pregnancy can reach full term? I really have to give birth to this baby, please help me to have the baby, please” I cried out.

” I will see how I can help you through Angela but I can’t guarantee you will both survive the full term. The cancer is in it’s advanced stage and am afraid you don’t have a lot of time” he shook his head.