Hopeless

Episode 4

My name is Ava Donald, yes I lost my son, the only hope I had, my comfort, my friend, he was the only strength left in me after I lost her dad, he died in my arms right on the hospital bed, that very day I died as well, my life shattered, that was the peak of it, like how can the whole world turn against one person?

Dear reader do u really think u have a problem? if your problem is just money and material things u don’t have a problem, some of us had tasted the bitter portion of life! that your problem is just a tip of iceberg when some of us open up and tell you what we’ve been through,

Back to my story I watched as my only child was lowered into the grave, I saw myself going with him, i made a decision to take my life and follow my son but my aged parents were at my neck, my father said if I hurt myself he will die too and my mother said the same, but absolutely there was nothing enticing anymore in this face of the Earth,

Do u know that I was sacked from my working place because I was always lost in thought! how am I going to blame them? I was occupying a good position that needs a very lively and agile lady but life knocked me down, I left the office and when I got home I called my younger sister Nkem and told her that if something is not done she might not meet me alive, she took taxi to our house immediately, she came, begged me to come and live with her so that she can be keeping me company as I just lost my job, she was walking as a newscaster in a local radio station around Lagos mainland, I had no option than to follow her, I know I will definitely do something stupid if I choose to stay alone to I picked some of my things and moved in with Nkem,

She tried her best to make me feel at home even though I was already lost, like I will wake up in the morning no Williams no Andre, it is not a good experience,

Gradually I was coping with the company I get from my sister, shortly after her boyfriend proposed, this was a mixed feeling for me, I was happy that my sister was getting married but what about the me? of course u all know I cannot move into her matrimonial home so Nkem getting married is a bomb to my heart but I had to cover up and wish her well,

Nkem got married and moved in with her husband while I stayed in her apartment, she advised I go out to look for a job but I was not emotionally ready to work, all I needed at the moment was to stay close to people, the only 2brothers I have are happily married, Nkem is my only sister, when I couldn’t bear it again I packed my belongings and left to the East, yes it is better to stay with my aged parents than to die in loneliness, At the Park I met my former colleague, she came to pick her waybiled goods at the park, she was so shocked to see me looking unkept, she expressed her sympathy and I told her the reason I am leaving Lagos, she already knew my husband was dead but not that of my son, she was surprised and asked me to cancel my trip, she said I can move in with her and she will help me to heal,

my mind was already made up to go home so we only exchanged numbers and she assured that she will keep in touch, I got home and it was like jumping from frying pan to fire, I will greet some people and they will not respond, it was later I discovered that everyone sees me as an unlucky being, nobody wants to associate with me, when I get to the tap where people are fetching water they will all leave there for me, when I pass people murmur,. my only solace was my parents especially my mom, tears dried in my eyes, I went through hell, yes I saw the devil and had a hand shake with him in my journey of life, my name is Ava Donald, I will write all, I want to pour out my heart, i will tell u how everything that happened, I don’t want to skip a line…….