Hopeless

Episode 6

Ava you are leaving my house this night not even tomorrow, She shouted on top of her voice,

I was confused and perplexed more than ever, to the best of my knowledge we have been living in peace, I’ve spent 4months with her already and we are good, we talked and laughed before she left to work that day, coming home to tell me to pack was confusing, she knew very well I have nowhere to go to , that is not really my concern, I can decide to end my life if I did not see any where to stay but my headache was the fact that we never quarrelled, I know what I’m supposed to do in terms of financing the home because I had some money with me as I said earlier, I’ve never allowed her to carry all the responsibilities at home,

Jenifer please what did I do to u? what is my sin? you left to work this morning happily and came like that, if I’ve offended you anyway we can talk about it, I pleaded but she flared up,

you are leaving my house tonight, I don’t want to inherit your misfortune, I was warned but I did not listen, my friends asked if I am sure I am going to accommodate someone that lost her husband, her job and her son within one year but I closed my ears, now your staying here is bringing misfortune to me, you are leaving this night, she blasted!

I was still confused than ever, what did I do? what misfortune are u talking about? please Jenifer this is too much,……. I said but she interrupted me…

you brought nothing than misfortune to me, Ava do u know that Frank just broke up with me? is that the reward I will get from accommodating u? we’ve been dating for year before you came to live with me, how come this never happens untill now? Ava you are leaving, even my friends are saying it, that u spiritually want me to remain single like you, Frank that was already planning to engage me,. She cried,

But how Jenifer? is it the same Frank that has been treating you like a rag? is it the same Frank that will beat u up Everytime and I will be using hot water to nurse your bruises?, the same Frank that cheats and if u confront him he will hit you??? Tell me Jenifer is it the same frank that landed u in the hospital because of his beating? is the same Frank that gave u a huge mark on your neck with his blow while I was still working in the same place with you? Today Frank finally broke up with you and you came home to accuse me of what I know nothing about, even if someone told u that, are u not supposed to rebuke him/her? so the misfortune I brought to u is Frank breaking up with you? oh God I’ve seen enough, why can’t u just take my life let me rest…… I cried and wept but she insisted that I was the cause and sent me out of her house that night.

Thank God I was able to afford a hotel, I paid for 3days and lodged there, at the end of the 3days I was still hopeless, I paid for a week again, at this point I was already running out of cash, by the end of the one week I was penniless,

You will be wondering why didn’t I commit suicide, I would have done that but I’ve found God, during my stay at the hotel I picked up a Bible I saw at the table and went through many chapters, I was starting to build a relationship with God but my life was not organised, At this point I have hope for living, I promise myself that I will not take my life by myself, if Death comes I will embrace it but I will never think of taking my life again, I was determined to Live,

I picked up my bag, prayed and left the hotel, In less than 30 I got a call, it was from my younger sister Nkem, I just have birth big sis, please start coming immediately,. she said happily,

It was a big miracle because without the child birth I will never think of going to her matrimonial home, I love my privacy when I was married so that’s the same way I will allow everyone around me to have their privacy, I did not want to disturb my sister with my miserable life,

I was relieved with the news and took a taxi down to her home, I was glad to behold my blood sister’s baby, it felt like my Andre is back in my arms, he is is a boy too,

I bath her and the baby , dressed the house and went to the kitchen,

I was cooking when I heard noises from their room, I tiptoed and listened, it was her husband that just came back from work….. he was very angry when he learnt that I came,

why did you allow her in here after everything I told u? oh you want her to kill me and my son the way she killed get husband and son, Nkem if your sister did not leave this night you will not see me tomorrow! he fired,

my sister was crying and begging him and explaining to him that I was just a victim of circumstances, that there is nothing attached to it but he insisted, I was already soaked in tears where I was standing, I walked back to the kitchen and turned off the gas.

when I was done keeping their kitchen the way I met it I went directly to their room, they were still on the argument, my sister was her knees begging him to allow me, I told her to get up and go to bed, I assured her that I Know she loves me and I love her too but for the sake of peace in her marriage I am leaving, she cried and said she will choose to follow me than to trade me for her Marriage, I told her that I will never watch that Happen, I will never be the reason her marriage will be destroyed, At least to the best of my knowledge the man is trying in the marriage, she has never complained of anything about him, he simply did not want me in his home and I understand,

I comforted her and picked up my bag, the husband was still shouting that I should leave his home…….

I left again, this time there was no single penny in my hand, just me, my bag and my God,…….