Hopeless

Episode 8

may I know you better Ava? Mr Donald asked when Emeka left,

I told him my story from the first day of my affliction to date, he shook his head after listening to me…..

Well you are welcome, I lost my wife 2 months ago immediately after delivery, I know my security must have told u that, I am from Europe but I work here in Lagos Nigeria, feel free in my home but I do not play with my children, they are the life in me, I had a nanny before but she was sacked when my video dictated where she ignored the children while they were crying for food, your only duty is my children, I have a cleaner, a chef and Errand boy, just take care of my children, because of my work I am always busy that is why I want someone that is serious, I am sorry for all you’ve been through but don’t joke with the welfare of my children, I am still mourning my wife please do me a favor by taking care of this children well, Mr Donald pleaded,

i assured him that i will do my best, he quickly took his bath and left to work,

As he left i went down the memory lane, I remembered everything, how I gave birth safely, called my husband in great joy and how I lost him that day leaving my son fatherless, I remembered how I was so eager to raise my son’ well but he left me to the other side, that image of his body being lowered to the grave refuse to leave my head, I was seriously lost in thought and vowed to take care of Allie and Alliana like I did to Andre,

I Brought out my Bible, read some verses and prayed, I told God I am not ready to be homeless again, he should favor me in this house, I was still praying when one of the babies cried out, I rushed to to pick her up, I was cuddling her when the second woke up too, my work started!

my stay in master Donald house was beautiful, I prayed and God answered, I had everything within my reach, I was the only female working in the household, the cleaner and the chef were men but they are very peaceful and accommodating…..

But one thing was missing, Master Donald was always sad, from the day I stepped into that house I’ve not seen him smile, I was so troubled, I know he is mourning his wife but he should have time for himself,

I shared my worries with Jack the cleaner and he told me how master Donald was a very happy man with a cheerful look before he lost his wife, in his words,

I did not know that Oga will survive when his wife died,

On hearing that I understand perfectly because I’ve been there, from my little observation I see that master Donald was going deeply into depression, but how am I going to help him? he was even becoming aggressive, I felt so much for him and prayed like never before.

master Donald will wake up in the morning and come out to the living room, he has a special seat there, he will seat down starring at a book as if he is reading it, one day I tiptoed to see what he was reading and guess what? He was watching the picture of his late wife and tears were running down his cheeks,

Oh my God, this has been happening even before I joined them and I’ve sent 8months with them now but I’ve never cared to know what he was always doing at that spot every morning!

I went back to the children room and sat down, the children were still sleeping, I know he will soon leave for work and I really need to talk to him,

I stood up again, prayed and left to the sitting room, he was not there again, determined to talk to him that morning I walked up to his room and knocked, that was my first time of going close to his room, I knocked severally before he asked ‘who is at the door?’

it’s me Ava, I replied,

He said I should come in, I went in and met a huge shock, The pictures of the late wife was hanging all over the place, his bedsheets had her face printed on it, some female clothes were on the bed which I am sure it belongs to her, I became even scared,

what do u want?? he asked while trying to hide her pictures in his hands,

i was so heartbroken because now I understand the heaviness of his grieve, I knelt down in tears,

please sir I feel so bad seeing you sad everyday, I don’t need to ask you the reasons anymore, all I want to ask you is to live for your children, Your children want their dad, they want the real you, if u really love their mother why not allow her rest in peace and take care of the children? you cannot continue living your life for the dead, I’ve been there too, please sir I am pleading, I voiced out,

He was already in tears, he stood up, came closer and held my hands,

Ava to be honest with you if not because of my children I would have joined my wife long time ago…..she was….