In Love With My Pastor

Episode 16

God please help me, I don’t know how long I can hold myself, every part of my body yell for him, long for him to hold, cuddle and make passionate love with but I can’t because my stupid heart won’t let me.

SAM: You ain’t going out this morning?

PAPA: I will but that would be later in the evening.

SAM: Oh! I see, so what time are you coming back.

PAPA: Tomorrow morning, I should be here before 7am

What? His leaving me alone in this house? No no no I can’t stay here alone, I will just follow him, I’m sacred of staying here alone.

SAM: No daddy, I’m coming with you, I can’t stay in this whole house alone, what if I have another nightmare? No no please daddy.

PAPA: You can’t come with me, it’s official sam.

I couldn’t let him go, why should I? One I will be lonely, secondly I will be sacred and thirdly I was going to miss him. He insisted I stay at home alone, I didn’t say anything for some second because tears was already forming in my eyes. He saw it and smiled “no again sam” “you can’t keep doing that” he said truthfully.

I can’t help the fact I’m emotional even my parents get weak when they see those tears but my siblings? They hate me so much because “I can cry for african”

SAM: I just want to come with you please?

PAPA: Ok I will just cancel the meeting today, then have it tomorrow morning and return back home before 6pm how about that?
I jumped on him and hugged him so tight, he was surprise at first but I was shocked when he wrapped his hands round my back too. It was warm and I felt save inside. I don’t know what push me to break free from the hug, I did and stare into his eyes, he stare too, I bite my lower lip, I know it’s a sin but for once I have to make this sin happen, so I brought my head close to his, before he could say jack? I kissed him. He drew back from me almost immediately I felt bad, the kiss didn’t last long, “I’m sorry daddy, I didn’t mean for it to. I didn’t complete my sentence because he brought down his mouth and covered mine. (wow) it was surprising, I didn’t know if I should scream for joy or even cry for joy. It became so fierce that if I didn’t stop it, it would lead to more greater sin. So I pulled away I swear I could see it in his eyes, he wanted me as much as I wanted him. But it’s wrong so wrong.

PAPA: Why, what happened, I thought you wanted this sam?

SAM: Yes, I want this but it’s wrong, you are a pastor for christ sake and married.