Reborn In Darkness

Episode 32

Felicia`s POV..

I woke up feeling my mouth dry, my whole body felt like I was taken for some good turns in a grinding machine. My head was throbbing loudly I was failing to sit up straight.
“Felicia! Felicia! Are you okey? How are you feeling?” Chalwe`s voice came loud in my ears I held my hands to my ears to prevent the loud sound from getting to me further.
“Jesus has set you free, he has delivered you from the bondage of the evil one. Sit up and see what the almighty one has done for you today” I looked at his face as he spoke squatting next to me and holding my back to support me to sit up.
“What happened? “ I asked a little bit confused seeing 4 people around me and I noticed Daniels seemed a little distant as he kept sitting aside looking lost as the others kept lifting their hands up praising God.
“You don’t remember anything?” Chalwe asked again.
I looked around and startled after seeing Feli laying down motionless.
“What…” I could not finish asking as my eyes kept on Feli and Chalwe started telling me Feli was dead,
“It is dead and you are free, for so many years this thing kept you in bondage, but now Glory be to Jesus you are free” he smiled holding my hand up for me to stand. At that moment realization fall in, I remembered feeling dizzy and falling down after so much pain of burning in my body.
I looked at Daniels and the look on his face gave me shivers. He looked at me like he was looking at a stranger from some distance town. That burning love, the passion I used to see in his eyes was gone.
“My love, am…” I tried to craw to hold him but he flinched back standing away from me.
“What is this thing? What was it doing in my house?” he asked his voice so cold.
“I know this is hard for you but believe me it has not been easy hiding this thing for years from you. I wanted several times to tell you but I didn’t have the courage to, I was scared I would loose and …” I would not say anymore as I started crying, in all sincerity I felt so ashamed and guilty. Now that Feli was out of the picture the whole sense of shame and guilty dawned on me and I could not hold myself.

“Well, am sorry Felicia, I truly am but I don’t think…”
“Enough Daniels!” one of the men who were praying for me spoke up cutting him short,
“This woman here is your wife, God did not set you both free so that you two can come to hate each other, listen to me. I know this will not be easy on you both but I want you to be prayerful and embrace forgiveness, especially you Daniels. Let God himself be the one to take care of both of you, remember this, to error is human but to forgive is divine. “He nodded his head but I kept mine down in shame.

Honestly I knew I could not expect so much from Daniels given the circumstances. I was later that day after burning the snake to ashes, made to tell the entire truth. All the time as I told my story, Daniels kept shooting glances at me especially when I revealed how I pushed Pamela and Ritah away.
“It has been hell for me. I know I deserved the things I went through because I made the wrong choices but now I know better. “I told them all and the men of God helped pray more for me. By the time they were leaving I felt like my very old self again, I felt young and strong. There was some peace hovering inside me and even though I knew things would not be the same between me and Daniels, I felt God would help me through it all.
He sat back the couch silent as the visitors left. Chalwe stood up to go and prepare something for us all to eat and for the first time in five years, we sat eating in silence. Daniels barely uttered a word.
“He will never look at me the same.” I told Chalwe as I washed the plates in the kitchen that night.

“Trust God, Felicia, the battle is already won and anything else will fall back in place, Daniels will come around, give him time, he is still in shock and am sure God will make you both come to terms soon” he patted my hand before walking out.

I looked up the roof and sighed sniffing in the tears, “thank you God, thank you, if you truly have me forgiven today, make my husband love me again” I whispered a prayer and walked to join Daniels in the bedroom my heart racing.

I slowly moved into bed to accompany him and he moved to the edge of the bed.
“Daniels, am sorry I…” I almost touched him but he sharply moved away. I was lost of words, I looked at him and my only response was to shed tears.

“I cannot blame you at all, I know you are probably still in shock, I don’t know if one day you will get to forgive me for this…”
“For this? You say it like its nothing huge Felicia. My God, I cannot get off the pictures of that thing from my head. I don’t now honestly how am going to look at you anymore. I know am a believer and I have to forgive you. It could have been easier if you lied about something else, but us living in the same house with that thing for years, losing all the babies we were supposed to have together” he shook his head
“I don’t know Felicia, truly I want to get past this but I don’t know how I will be able to do that” he frowned and got a pillow to move to sleep on the couch.

“Am sorry, there is nothing else to say Daniels, I truly am sorry and I pray all this passes. Am glad God saved my life today and I hope I will be strong enough to face whatever is coming tomorrow. You do not have to leave this bed tonight. I will move out and give you time to think through things.