Reborn In Darkness

Episode 7

” what did you do?” She held my face in both her hands daring me not to lie to her.
It was too late to bark down I had to tell her. But instead of saying it, I asked for her to go inside to my bedroom with me.
” Why should we go inside the house Felicia” she sighed.
” please mama just come with me” I pulled her hand and led her to my bedroom. Without warning I lifted the matress and there it was, a snake with a complet copy of my head curled up in the corner fast asleep.

My mama was puzzled, her eyes wide open her mouth open too, she was gasping for air.
” what is this Fel… ” she could not complet her question and it woke up shinning its eyes at her.

My mother could not take it any more. She fall down collapsing to the floor I had to hold her before she landed on her head.
” mama! I screamed shaking her. Mama am sorry please wake up! I yelled loudly. But she could not open her eyes.

I pulled her to the living room not minding what the other part of me was saying. That evening the neighbour’s helped me take her to the hospital. She never spoke a word, the doctors said she was traumatised, her BP was too high and she had gone into a comma. I cried besides her hospital bed. Pleading for her to answer me.

” mama am so sorry, I didn’t intend to hurt you mama. Please wake up and talk to me. I wanted you to help me cause I was dying inside. Please mama come back and help me with this please” I weaped almost the whole time but she never responded.
She died a couple of days later without saying a word to me and since then, I was consumed by guilty. Even though they ruled the cause of her death as high Blood pressure which led to a stroke, I knew I was the reason for it.
” Felicia! Fey!” Daniels shook me.
” what happen to your mother that has got you like this?”
” she knew I was going out with a sugar dad and her BP rose. She never recovered from that till she passed on. It was my fault she is gone” I lied wiping the tears that were falling uncontrollably .
” no Fey, yes she was upset maybe but you cannot blame yourself for her death. She was sick even before. we all know your mom had High blood presure so calm down okey. Stop doing this to yourself she wouldn’t want to see you like this” he wiped my tears comforting me.

” here take some more water. It will help you calm ” he handed me another fill of water. I grabbed it taking it all in one pour and sighed heavily looking at him.
” thank you.” I tried to smile.
” you feel better?” He smiled back.
” yeah actually. I have never told anyone this. ” I answered nodding my head.
” I will never repeat it to anyone, trust me. I know how you feel I can see the pain in your eyes but it’s gonna be okey. It will get better with time you will see. ” he shrugged.
” it will never be okey my dear. Am stuck ” i whispered in my head whilst smiling at him.
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Daniels POV
I watched her drink the cold water in one gulp, there was something about the manner in which she was drinking that cold water that got me concerned but I could not get myself to ask her about it, seeing how sad she was after talking about her mother.
” feeling okey now?” I asked her holding her hand. Her skin felt so smooth under my palms. I rubbed it gently not wanting to leave her side.

The story of her mother made me realise partly the reason behind her vivid sadness in her eyes. Who could blame her, she felt guilty for her mother’s death and probably would get to live with that somehow for the rest of her life.
” God help her” I silently whispered a prayer.

She looked at me in our silence this time with a genuine soft stare that gave me the impression I could have her as I desired to do.
” Fey, ccome here” I said after clearing my throat.

” what? ” she lifted her face at me..
” come on Lay down with me. My roomie is not coming any time soon.” I spoke with a smile.
” no I cannot do that Daniels, am …”
” don’t think of anything more than just lying down with me. I have known you for years Felicia and in all the years I have never thought of making you do what you do not want. Besides, I am not planning on getting intimate with you or any girl before marriage anyways so be at easy” I asurred her and she looked at me her mouth open.
” what?” I sat up staring at her surprised face.
” you are a virgin? ” she asked almost in a whisper.
” yeah actually I am. I know it’s sounds a little bit hedious in this era, but I told myself I would do it with that special person after I make her my wife ” i chuckled
I saw her frown wearing her smile and suddenly changed into a sad face.
” you are a good person with unbelievable principles, that special one will be lucky to have you as a husband ” she grinned.
” unfortunately I have had a share of my own shame after rushing for things I was not even supposed to at a tender age. ”
” come on lay down with me ” i pulled her ignoring her sentiment and cutting her speech short . She looked at me and reluctantly moved to join me. Curling herself in my arms placing her head on my chest and letting her right hand stay on my chest.
I could not help the urge to hold her. I wrapped my hand around her back and held the top of her hand, the left hand fingers interlocking with hers.
” hmm. Go on now” I sighed in a smile happy she allowed me that close. I felt her body relax and her soft sigh told me she was smiling.

” I liked that. I wish i had a chance to see it on your face even in a flash. ” I told her sincerly.
” what is that?” She’s looked up at my face making part of her natural soft hair touch my face.

” that smile I felt you do a few seconds ago” I answered. She smiled again this time still facing me and I could see the curve of her teeth. Her soft eyes gently staring into mine. That moment just felt perfect.
” thank you ” i smiled back and and she went back to her original position.
The next hour we stayed together talking about different things this time around I avoided anything about her which I noticed she was not so comfortable talking about. I let that part pass and talked about other things and I noticed she kept on talking back and laughing softly. I could see she was feeling herslef and I had reason to belaive she too realised how happy she had become.
” thank you so much for this I have never felt this relaxed and happy in a long time. For a long time, I have had a very occupied mind and that internal struggle. Now I feel like. . ”