The Blue Love

Episode 32

HOPEFUL LOVE
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JAJA’s Point Of View
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I look at Ben who was on sweet sleeping.
What happened earlier is really brain
draining and shock killing. I believe Ben
that he didn’t mean what he have done to
me. The question that keeps on bugging
me these past few days is does Ben have a
mental problem? He is not Ginny, he don’t
have DID.

I touch Ben’s face. “I love you, heart. I love
you very much even you’re like that. But
I’m afraid that one day, it was yourself
you’re going to hurt.”

I rise up and pick my phone on the bed side
table. I dialed Dad’s number. After two
rings, he answered the call.
“Jaja? Why the sudden call me late at
night? Is there something happened?”
Dad’s voice is full of concern.
“Sort of, Dad. It’s about Ben.” I look at Ben.

He furrowed his brow again like he’s angry.
I massage his brow to make it at ease.
“What happen to him?”
“Dad, Ben is acting strange. He acts like he
have mood swing. But I think he’s sick. He
just don’t tell it to me. He’s experiencing
severe headaches and sometimes he feels
like he want to vomit. Ben.. sometimes he
lost control and hurt everyone around him.
Dad, I don’t know what to do. I want to
bring back the Ben that I met.”
“Did he hurt you?” Dad’s voice is now
alarmed.

“Ye-yes, Dad. But it’s not too much. He just
lost his control in jealous.”
“Why? Did you make something that made
him jealous?”
“He saw a picture of me hugging my old
friend, Dad. I explained it to him but he
didn’t listen. Dad, he’s my friend. Nothing
more.”

“I believe you, Jaja. Ben just love you very
much and got scared. Don’t worry, I’m
going to talk to him tomorrow. Jaja, stay
away from him as you can. We don’t know
what’s happening to him. I haven’t seen
him these past few days after the party
that’s why I don’t know what’s happening
to him.”

“Okay, Dad. Sorry for disturbing you.”
“It’s okay. Thank you for letting me know
Ben’s condition right now. Sleep now, Jaja.
Good night. If ever Ben had awaken, make
him drink a glass of milk and give a
sleeping pills on it. It’s better to be alert.”
“Thanks, Dad. Good night.” I ended the call.
I return from lying down and faced Ben. I
hug him very tight. “Have a sweet dream,
sweetheart.”
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BEN OPENED the door when someone
buzzed the bell.
“Dad, what are you doing here?”
I look at the door from the kitchen. I
smiled when Dad look at me.
“I’m here to check you and Jaja.” Dad came
in. They walk towards the kitchen. “Ben,
are you okay?”
“Yes, Dad. Why’d you ask?” Ben look at me
like he was saying did-you-tell-it-to-him?
I smiled at him apologetically. He hold my
hand and smiled.

“I heard what you did on the company.
Ben, you’re getting too much rude.”
“I’m sorry, Dad.”
“Let’s have a check up.”
Ben look at his Dad, confused. “Why?”
“I want to make sure you’re not acting like
Ginny.”

“I don’t have a split identity,” Ben seriously
said.

“Heart, me and Dad are concern about your
condition, please don’t make it bad.”
Ben sighed and look straight into my eyes.
“I am just afraid to know what’s my
condition.”
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I AM WASHING my hands on the lavatory of
the girl’s comfort room of a restaurant.
Momsh is so excited that she even invited
me and the whole Colleen family in the
restaurant. We’re going to receive the
result today.

“So you’re still not contented with Ben.
You’re looking for another guy to ease your
itchiness?”

I turned to face the lady who speak. It was
Olga. She just enter the comfort room. Only
the two of us is here inside.

“Oh! What happened to your cheek? Did
Ben slapped you because of the picture?”
I knitted my brows. “So it was you who
sent the picture.”

“Of course. Ben must know that his
girlfriend is having an affair with a resto
crew.”

I smirked. “Well, you’re wrong, lady. I have
no affair with others. It was only Ben. I am
loyal and not a b*tch who cheats.”

Olga’s stare is like slicing knife. “Gold
digger.”

I laugh. “It’s better to be a gold digger than
to be a s–t that make out with another.”
“Are saying that I am s–t?!”
“Of course not. Why? Are you affected?”
“If you think Ben loves you very much, well
you’re wrong. I’m going to take back
what’s mine.”

“What’s yours? You dumped him and I
picked him up. Now, he’s mine. You have
no rights to make him yours because you
have thrown him away.”

Olga laughed. “You like things that I
already thrown?”

“You already thrown it, but you’re going to
pick it up? What are you? Are you getting
poor that’s why you’re picking back what
you have abandoned? Too desperate.”
“You’re the one who’s desperate here. I am
Ben’s first love.”

I laugh again. “Lady, let me tell you
something that I know you don’t know.

There are four stages of love. First stage is
the First Love, yes you’re his first love and
indeed, you still have a spot in his heart but
it is just a spot. Second stage is One True
Love. Third is One Great Love. And last is
Hopeful Love, the unexpected love that
arise from an unexpected time and scene. I
am his hopeful love, lady. Hopeful love is
very special.”

“I am his one true love.”
“Are you sure about that?”
“Yes.”

“One true love? Come on! You lost it, Olga.
You lost Ben since the first time you cheat.
Ben deserve to be love, not to be cheated.
You broke him. You made his life miserable
and now you have a courage to return to
his life? Where’s your shame?”
“Don’t assume too much, darling. Don’t
dream too high, you might break your own
self if you fall.”

I smirked at her. “Move on, lady. You are
now just Ben’s past.”
“This past will surely make your life
miserable.”

“Do it. I can live with how miserable that is.
I’ve been through a lot of miserable times.
Do not threaten me because I am not the
kind of girl who get easily threaten.”
“You are just his rebound!” she shouted.
Now she lost her poise.

“Better luck next time, lady. You lost your
chance to be with Ben for the rest of your
life.”

I left her in the comfort room and return to
our table. The Colleen family isn’t here yet,
only me and Momsh. But Momsh said
they’re coming here once we saw the
results and was confirmed that one of
them.

“What took you so long, darling?” Momsh
asked as I sit on the chair.

“Just cleared someone’s mind, Momsh.”