The Blue Love

Episode 39

HALF DEAD HALF ALIVE
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JAJA’s Point Of View
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“Wake me up, sweetie..”
I quickly got up and get out of the room
where I was admitted because I fainted
out. I need to see Ben now. Momsh was
about to enter my room when she saw me
emerged from it.

“Darling, where are you going? Are you
okay now?”

I hug Momsh that made her surprised.
“Momsh, I had dreamt of Ben. He’s alive.”
Dad approach us when he saw us. “Are you
okay now, Jaja? You fainted out yesterday.”
Yesterday? Just how long did I sleep?
“Dad, how is Ben?” I asked hopefully.
Dad smiled a little. “I don’t know if he’s
okay. He’s still on the fatal situation.”
“What do you mean, Dad?”
“He’s in a comatose state, Jaja.”
That’s it. Ben showed on my dream to say
that I need to wake him up. Ben really
don’t want to go. He want to be with me.
He wants to wake up.

“Dad, where is he? Can we visit him?”
“Of course. Let’s go.”
Dad lead the way. I wear a robe and a face
mask required for visiting a patient who
has undergone on an operation. I entered
the room alone, Dad and Momsh was left
outside.

I walk near to Ben, slowly, as I stare at him.
I feel pain just by seeing him like this. He’s
half alive and half dead, the worst idea
here is only the machine that keeps him
breathing.

I sighed and sit on the stool beside his bed.
He just looks sleeping with a bandage on
his head and with a tube on his mouth. I
feel the heat in my eyes, tears wants to go
out, but I stop it. I shouldn’t be weak now
that Ben needs me to be strong.

I hold his hand and let it touch my cheek. I
look at him, watching him breathe.
“Hi, heart. They say those who are in a
comatose state can still hear everything
around them. I know you can hear me. You
look ugly with that bandage on your head.
I hate to see you sleeping here on a
hospital bed. I hate the sound of the life
machine. I hate the smell of the hospital.

Now, wake up and let’s get out of here. I
more likely to to lie down beside you on
our bed. I like to hear you snore than the
beeps of this machine. I like to sniff your
hair than the odor of this hospital. Ben,
wake up. You want me to wake you up. I’m
here to wake you up.”

My tears fell down when I couldn’t hold it
anymore.

“Ben, I miss your smile, your laugh, your
hug, your kiss, your voice. I miss you. Come
back to me please. I can accept if you
forget about me, just be alive. Be alive and
I’ll be okay.”

I closed my eyes and wiped my tears. I let
my face close to his ear.

“I love you, sweetie. Fight and live for
everyone who loves you. Jaja is waiting for
you. Wake up for your Jaja.”

I removed my face mask to kiss him on his
lips. I stared at him for a moment until I
decided to get out. I couldn’t see him like
this any longer.
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IT’S BEEN two days since Ben was in a
comatose state. There’s a good changes
happening to him as the Doctor said and
we are hoping that one of these days, he’ll
wake up. But they couldn’t assure to us
that he’s 100% okay if he wake up. There
are possibilities problems that he’ll
encounter like pain in his head, difficulty to
talk, to move his body, or to remember.
My heart jump when my phone rings. It
was Dad.

“Jaja, come here. Ben is awake!” Dad said in
an excited tone.

“Thank you, Dad. I’ll be right there.”
Oh my God! Thank you very much, God! I
quickly cleaned myself and hop in my car.
“Jaja, where are you going?” Momsh asked.
She walk towards the car.
“Momsh, Ben is awake!” I said. Happiness
filled my heart.

“Really? Oh God, thank you! Wait, I’ll come
with you.” Momsh quickly hop in my car.
She became close to Ben.

“Wear your seatbelt, Momsh.” I smiled as
Momsh did what I said.
“Be a car racer, darling.”

I drive my car as fast as I can just to be on
the hospital quick. After five minutes of
driving, we approached the hospital. After I
parked the car, me and Momsh run towards
the elevator and enter the floor level of
where Ben at.

We saw Dad outside the door of Ben’s
room.

“He woke up earlier but he was injected
with a sedatives because he’s freaking out.
Now he’s calm when he woke up again.”
We entered the room. The doctor is
checking him. I saw Ginny, Ben’s Mum, and
Olga standing on the right side of Ben’s
bed.

“He’s okay. He just freaked out earlier
because he can’t remember anything. Even
his name. Please don’t stress the patient, it
may lead him confusions. The surgery still
affects his thinking so expect for him to
have a difficulty to anything. I’ll leave you
for a while and I’ll be back later to check
him up again.”

The doctor leaved after he said those
words. The three ladies circled Ben.
“Mum, what happened to me? Why am I
here?” Ben asked. He don’t remember what
happened.

“What are you doing here, Olga?” Ben
asked.

“I’m visiting you, dear. I’m concern about
you that’s why I came here.”
“I don’t need your concern. You leaved me
before so don’t act like you’re still care for
me.”

Ben remember Olga. But he don’t
remember what happened. I gulped. Ben
tilt his head to look at us, his sight was
blocked by Olga.
“Get out of there, Olga.” He is still rude.
Olga walk and stand beside Vina and Ginny.
Her face is color red.
“You.”

I look at Ben. He’s staring at me. I can see
that he’s trying to remember me the way
he look at me. My heart beats fast. I don’t
like the way he look at me.
“You look familiar. Do I know you?” he
asked.

Stunned. All of them, Vina, Ginny, Dad, and
Momsh are looking at me, surprised can be
seen on their face. It was just Olga who’s
smirking.
“You don’t remember me,” I said.
“I don’t. Who are you?” he asked.