With The Devil

Episode 24

“Do you really want the answer to that question?” She asked me after keeping calm for a brief moment.
“I wouldn’t be asking it if I didn’t want to know!” I replied her.

Her beautifully lightened and pretty face softened a bit and she looked away from our eye to eye stare……and tears started rolling smoothly and slowly down from her eyes down to her cheeks.

I didn’t notice it at first cuz of the way she was facing, but noticed it immediately I gently said that am still waiting for her reply.
“You are crying?” I asked as if am not seeing she is crying.
” am really sorry” she said.
“I didn’t want you to see me this way!” She concluded.

I went closer to her and held her,wrapping my right hand around her head and bringing her closer to my chest,consoling her in the process;whilst also asking her why she is crying.

” Am really really sorry” she said again.
“Stop apologizing” I said in reply.
“You just won’t understand” she said.
“That’s what you keep saying every time,yet you don’t give me the opportunity to understand anything” I replied her.
“I never wanted you to start pitying me,but I guess that will be my lot from now onwards then!” She said.

“Why do you say so?” I asked her.
“Cuz of the question you asked me” she replied.

“What did the question do?” I retorted.
“Well,you asked me wat I actually want with you?” She said or asked rather.
“Yes!” I replied.

“I have accessed you a lot of time,but it was that last scenario that I trickily created that dream at the pool that made me realise that that part of you I really want can never be mine.It belongs to another!” She concluded.
” In otherwords?” I said,expecting her to complete it.

“You love another person wholeheartedly and there is nothing anyone else can do about it..Including me!” She said.
“So,that’s why you were crying?” I asked.
“Its so painful.But,I guess you won’t understand!” She said.

“So all this while,what you were looking for is a total love from a free mind not borne out of pity?” I asked.
She readjusted herself and faced me and nodded her head in affirmation.

” Well,if that’s what you want,I am yours” I replied.
“Are you sure?” She asked me.
“Yes,am very sure” I replied.
“Okay then.But,you have to do one thing for me!” She said.

“Which is?” I asked.
” Break up with her!” She said.
“Break away from the one you have loved.The one person that is between us” she replied.

Guess my facial expression here!
“What?” I said.
She smiled seriously, urging me.
“I have never done that before,and I don’t even know how to do that…..not to talk of doing it to Amara!” I said, stupidly calling out her name.

“But,you can start now. She will understand, I will make sure of that.” She assured.
“Hope you will do this for me?” She asked.
“If that’s what will make you happy and feel loved but not pitied,I will!” I concluded..
It doesn’t matter whether it’s obvious that you are on the right track or you still can’t connect the dots. Do not be afraid to take up new activities that your heart tells you to. Eventually it will all make sense and you will understand the reason why you were interested in seemingly random things. Just trust the process. The process itself is intelligent – you only need to allow it to unfold….Do not force it,forced things always have one thing in common:regrets!

I have always known one thing for certain As regards my relationship with Pretty,and that is the fact that my heart longed for her.Not cuz she was extremely ravishing and gorgeous, or that she was a s*x freak or that she is the type of girl that everyone will actually want to get a piece of;mine was borne out of “need”,pure unbridled ultimate need.
Not that it justified what la!d ahead,not that it makes me greater or lesser than I already am,not that it changes or alters or improves anything per se;but,it is the simple truth I realised quite early in my life that I am a being that loves to feel.Hatred,jealousy,peace,love,patience,anger, anxiety and all the human emotions that have names,I love to feel it to the fullest..

So,you can then understand why I decided I had to play it out till the end with Pretty.
You can then begin to understand why I had to actually give in to the pleading of Pretty.
It was like she perfectly understood my nature,the extent I can go for the things that matters in my life to make us all fulfilled and satisfied.

Pretty understood and by extension made me understand the one thing that I have rarely even given a thought in my life:Jane and Amara.

I quite never really understood why no matter everything I did,this has been the two people I loved with my whole being,my whole essence;well,my grandma is the exception here.But now,I understand it better,and I guess you reading it understand it too.

Pretty understood it from the beginning, and that was the major reason why she always took me on coaster-mind-rides,trying to break through but realised she couldn’t,but she could persuade me to….Without being told, I knew what exactly I was bargaining for, but I guess “be careful what you wish for” is in order here.

But Now,I have to do something I have not done before to experience in full what I have been experiencing partially..

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I can’t remember how long or how many times we f*cked that Sunday,but one thing I do remember clearly is that I had the biggest p—y adventure of my life that day..The words to describe it escapes my mind,but I will leave you to imagine it.

One vivid thing still clear in my mind now is that Pretty offered to actually take me to her abode through her mind thing,using the life force energy that manifested the two times I climaxed,but my mind was not actually disposed for it………and coupled with the fear factor(of course I didn’t tell).

After that day,my adventure with Pretty continued the following days up till the Wednesday that Amara and I agreed that I was coming.

What worse do you think can actually happen? Be sincere!