Bloody Lips

Episode 15

ALEXANDRA POV :

I am running… Running in the dark.. Where am I? I look around frantically but can’t see anything. It is dark here. All dark.

My heart starts to sink and beats faster. Where am I? Somebody help…

I try to yell, I open my mouth but I can’t find my voice. I can’t hear my voice. What is happening? Why it is so dark? Why I can’t speak?

Help somebody. Help!! I scream but can’t hear my voice. I keep running,tears falling down my eyes. This darkness suffocating me,eating me..

Is this end? Am I dead?

I fall down on my knees,screaming voicelessly with tears falling down my cheeks. Then i see something, i see light. Light? Finally someone is here to help. More tears fall down my eyes. I feel exhausted and tired. I can’t stand,it feels like my legs don’t have energy to stand.

I move my hands towards the light. It starts to come towards me,I smile with tears still falling down my eyes. Closer.. Closer… More closer.. It keeps coming.. It is the light in my dark.. Then the light starts to transform..transform into the figure.. Figure of the man??

I scrunch up my eyebrows trying to see who is he? Then the figure becomes clearer. His hand is out infront of him for me to take. I look up at the face. WHAT??!!!

Xander….

I shot up straight,panting hard ,sweat covering my face. I put a hand on my chest trying to calm my racing heart. My eyes wide open and looking straight. 1

I don’t know what that was? Was it a dream? Yes.. It was a dream. I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

But then memories come crashing down on me. My room. The voice. The hand. The eyes. Xander. Me, passing out. 1

My eyes shot open at that thought. Then I realize that I am in at unfamiliar surrounding. The wall in front of me is not my room wall. It is black. BLACK???!! 49

WHEN DID I PAINT MY WALL BLACK????!!! 84

Uh-oh… 3

The room has dim light. My head automatically turns towards left when i feel someone watching me. 6

And then my eyes get connected with him.. My eyes widen and he smirks his signature smirk and at that moment it feels like we are back in college. Back where we had started our relationship. Back where we made our memories. Back where we laughed together. Back where he left.. He left me.. HE LEFT ME..!!! 51

I look at him. He is wearing black bottom up shirt with black denim jeans. His one leg’s ankle over another leg’s knee. One elbow on the arm of the sofa and the other holding a glass in his hand which has a white drink in it. Maybe wine..

I gulp down. My throat feels dry. Where am I? In his house? He comes back? Where was he these years? How? When? He is the one torturing me? 95

“You…” I whisper ,trailing off. I don’t know how to start. It feels so strange,seeing him,talking to him. Many emotions errupt in my heart,making it beat faster. 19

He crooks his one eyebrow at me. His eyes always mesmerize me. 3

“You are back.” I state in a whisper. Silence. Then, 6

“I am.” He says in a deep voice. His voice still makes butterflies errupt in my belly. 18

“How…? When…?” I don’t know what to say and what to ask. I don’t have words.

“I have been back for quite a time,Alexandra ” he says,clearing my confusion. 19

Quite a time.. What should I say now? Should I ask him where was he? Should ask him about how he was doing? Should I ask him does he….does he still love me..

Or should you ask him if he was the one behind everything going on lately? My subconscious retorts..

I take a deep breath and ask the most dreaded question.

“You are the one behind all these things happening in my life lately?” 13

Deep down inside I wish he said no.. I wish he was not the one , making my life miserable.

“Yes. It was me,love”

Yes. It was me,love..

Yes. It was me, love..

It was him,making my life miserable. He was the one messing with my head. He is the one torturing me mentally. He was the one playing with my feelings

He was the one making my life a nightmare.

I can’t believe it.. How could he? He can never do this to me. But can he ? 11

He just did this to you… 2

He just did that to me. He, who claimed to love me do this.. He, who always helped me with my fear, do this to me. He did this. How i could believe it. 6

“What are you thinking so hard,love?” He asks again,putting the glass on the coffetable beside the sofa. 8

My heart pains,seeing him and knowing he is the one. Why he didn’t come out like a normal person would do rather than torturing me.

I make my way and move out of the bed. I put my feet down on the wooden floor. My head down, i don’t want to see him and revive the pain, he had put me through.

I stand up and look up to find him in front of me just inches away from me. Startling,I jump back. He tilts his head on one side, eyebrows scrunch together in confusion. 10

Making a move, I try to go from the side. But a hand wraps around my arm.

Cold.. Still his hand is as cold as it was before. I shake my head to get myself free from past thoughts. 6

“Leave.” I say,lowly. 10

Instead of doing what i said,he takes a step towards me.

“Don’t.. I said leave me” I say again but loudly now.

“I won’t” he replies. That ticks me off.

“I SAID FUCKING LEAVE!! ” I yell at him. 142

He pulls me toward him, I crash in his chest. He wraps his arm around my waist,caging me in. 1

“I won’t.. I fucking won’t ” he says angrily. 83

He is close. So close. I didn’t realize until now how much i miss him. How much I miss his touch. But I can’t forget what he did….

I thrash wildly in his hold,struggling to get free.

“Please leave me” I whisper,looking up at him.

“I don’t take you here to leave you,love. You are mine. Only mine. I am not leaving you. I am not letting you go….” He trails off,leaning closer to my face before continuing.. 21

“Never ever. I love you so fucking much to let you go,love.” 75

I love you so fucking much to let you go,love…

His words echo in my head, he still loves me. My heart swells with emotions. 27

But if he loves you, he won’t put you through the torture, he won’t leave you, a voice in my head says.. 76

But he did put me through that,he had left me before and now he did this.

“You don’t love me. You fucking don’t. You put me through so much. You put me through so much pain. I hate you. I fucking hate you for what you did to me.”

“Oh come on. I know you don’t hate me. It was just a game and was fun.” He chuckles and that’s it.

Before i know what i am doing, i slap him. I slap him so hard that my hand start to stink, painfully. 264

But he didn’t move an inch. I was thinking that by the force, i had slapped him with,there must be handprint on his face. But no.. 4

“You think it was fun? You think that sick game was fun? You heartless prick. The condition,the fear,the pain you put me through. It was fun? You scared Emma. You killed her cat. It was fucking fun?” I yell angrily, thrashing again. 148

He doesn’t say anything just stares at me. Then I remember something. That moment before I passed out was because I saw something. His eyes..My eyes wide open and I look at his eyes.

“Yo-your e-eyes..” I stutter.. He smiles at that. My eyes fall upon his lips. His smile. Tears start to buildup in my eyes again. How much I miss his smile.

“My eyes, what?”

“Th-they turn b-black.” 2

He chuckles.

“Are you hungry?” He asks. 127

What? Hungry? Seriously? At any other time I would love to eat hell but now it can be postponed for later. 8

“Leave me .. Just leave me. I want to go home. Just let me go.”

He sighs.

“I told you love, you are not going. I am not leaving you.” He says like i am a child. He unwraps his arm from around me.

“You have to leave me. You will leave me.” I pull back. But he holds my hand instead. I try to pull back but it is of no use.

He leans his mouth behind my ear before replying.

“In your dreams,love. But no. Your dreams won’t be of me leaving you but rather of me doing other wildest things to you.” He whispers. It sends shivers down my spine. Damn..

He chuckles.

“I still have that effect on you. I love it.” It pisses me off.

“You prick. You won’t even be in my life so in my dreams are impossible.” He laughs dryly before I know it, he pushes me in the mattress of the bed, hovering over me.

“Don’t piss me off,love. You know what happens when I get angry,right? ” His eyes looks angry almost turning dark again. What?

He snaps his eyes close,suddenly. Few seconds pass by,he takes a deep breath and exhale it before opening his eyes.

His eyes are back to his normal beautiful eye color. Am I hullicinating?

“And for your information, I am in your life and I am not planning of leaving.” He smirks again and crashes his lips on mine.