To Find Grace

Episode 23

To walk in the right path gives a peace of mind. One would feel liberated to walk among the people and smile, because you will have nothing to hide at all. Indeed it was the kind of feeling that Ben had at the moment as he sat silently in the house belonging to Jenas uncle. He had gone there early the following morning trying to see if he could make things right with his wife. He had decided from then onwards to live a life choosing the right steps of life. He had realized that I mistake on ones life had the ability to ruin one’s entire life.
“Good morning Ben?” Jena`s uncle greeted him snapping him from his regrets and deep thoughts
“you are here already?” the man asked sitting down next to Ben a cup of hot coffee in his hands he sipped from the mug before sighing and looking at Ben.

“Do you remember about 16 years ago when you sat in that same place only a different set of furniture?” he started looking around and back at Ben
“Um, yes though I don’t know what you mean exactly because I had sat in this house several times.

“I know Ben, but the day I particularly remember is when you moved out of that seat, knelt down in front of all of us, my late wife, Jena`s mother, your sister Bana Junior and your step father. You looked at Jena with so much love and sincerity. I wondered for a moment what you had in your mind, in my first thought, I had thought you wanted to apologize for what you did to her. But you know what? When you asked her to marry you in front of all of us, I knew that day that there was a lot of good in you Ben. Instead of being sorry for damaging her, you stood up and said I am going to be man enough and finish what I started and for me that was being a man. A man is not defined by the mistakes he makes my dear child, but by the way he makes the right choice to make things better. The life of a man is not determined by the kind of shoe he wears but by the steps he decides to take. “

The man explained calmly and paused to take his coffee as Ben waited for him to go on, he could feel what the man was driving at and in his heart he thanked God he had crossed paths with such a wise man.
“So” he continued

“What am trying to say today is that remember where you have come from, what the two of you have been through and do the right thing Ben. Apologizing a hundred or million times doesn’t make you a man Ben, it makes you foolish. Instead change the path and chose one that will build you and your family. Do not break down what you have spent years building, it’s not everyone that has what you have.”

“ She is in the spare bedroom. ” the man added and looked at Ben smiling before walking away without giving Ben the chance to say a thing.

Ben knew that moment what the wise words meant. He stood up and sighed taking a deep breath before walking into the room which the uncle had told him his wife was. Jena was fully dressed in a long dress that outlined her figure one would not tell she was above 35 years. She didn’t look at the door to see who had walked in it was like she already knew who was there.

“I thought you were still sleeping” Ben started calmly as he stood by the door not knowing where to start from.
“No, I barely slept. What brings you here this morning are you not supposed to be working?” she asked still looking out the window her voice so composed.

“I couldn’t go to work My Love. I wanted to come see you. The kids couldn’t stop asking about you last night I had to sleep with Mapalo just to keep her from crying. Isaac is mad at me, he was faking a smile this morning at breakfast.” He murmured sadly as he rubbed his hand as though those words would make his wife jump up and ran back home.

“I have made up my mind Ben, am not living like this again. This whole drama you have brought to my life and that of your kids has come to an end and from now on, am going to live and smile, am going to be happy and do that which gives me peace. Cause you know what?” she stopped and turned around her face well done her make was perfectly done she had her lips in nude lipstick matching with her skin tone. Under normal circumstances Ben could have been singing praises for her beauty and how young she looked, but that morning he felt he had no rights to do that.